Pre- exam - Exam period - Post Exam

oh gosh!! i've ended my 2nd year in my uni life! whuuhuuu~ ;p in this 2nd year, my life seemed to be colurful, but in fact it was not!!! i hate 2nd years n the things tat i've gone thru! i had some complicated feelings in this year 2010/2011 life.

Pre-exam

i had several activities during my 2nd year. the biggest n time consuming event was the YLS annual concert as i was holding the production group leader position. it was a tiring job as i finished up the job almost by myself. it's aint tat i din believe in others but they cant commit 2 me. at the end, i became the Cynthia tat i dint know n recognize. i owes had the complication emotions n i was down, emo n bla bla bla. during tat period, all my thoughts was in -ve. i duno y. mayb influenced by surroundings n the people as well. but tat's over. FINALLY. with all my tears n sweat, the concert was considered as succeed coz we had about 1000 audiences. yahooo! the 2nd event was my fac event i was the member of the photographer n designs bureau. initially i was reali into tat event n i promised 2 commit myself. but i ended up with the other way round. coz u dun like the management stuff n i was unwilling 2 serve the ppl tat had different working style with me. 3rd event was the mooting. oh gosh~ during tat period, i was stressed 2 a limit. i was sooooo unlucky as my laptop was not functioning at all after i had completed my oral submission n i dun even do the backup stuff ( usually i did) . i've 2 redo it n nobody was lending their hand 2 me. after 2 years i survived at my law sch, i can juz simply concluded tat every single individuals at my law sch is the best Oscar Actor n Actress! u tot u know him/her well, but the fact is U R NOT! u tot u r his/her frens, but the fact is U R NOT! even if u treat them nicely, they will juz take 4 granted. i've reali done with these kind of faker n backstabber! i reali cant understand y peninsular ppl is sooooooo giasu (no offence, but tis is the truth) n off course, the peninsular ppl will say y the borneo ppl is soooo weired? tat's common.

Exam Period

i hate exams!!! reading law is interesting but i hate exams! i believed nobody will like exams ><'' the exam period was the most suffering time in the entire year coz my course was different from others. our credit hours 4 a paper is 6 credit hours. tat's mean if u had screwed up tat paper, u hav 2 retake the subject 4 a year!!!! so i'm not aiming A o wat, i juz hope tat at least i can get a B-. lolz. coz hav 2 reach the standard of the JPA as well. if not hav 2 compensate Gov RM130k. wat a huge amount~ huh!!! @@ during the last 2 days of the exam was my super duber beh song period!!!! i'll not say rude words unless i'm reali in the anger! i felt being betrayed n sabotaged. i was suffered even i shared the same space with the betrayer n the backstabber. from tat incident, i decided 2 be a fishmonger in the next 4 semesters. in tis world, there's no such thingy as X cant survive without Y n vicer versa. since we had different thoughts n principle, juz dun force ourselves 2 be part of them. i prefer alone rather than a bunch of ppl. at least i wont get hurt. i can do anything by myself. i wont die without u all! dun think how importance u r in tis world. without u, the earth is still rotating n the sun is still shinning! we r juz a mirco thingy in the world.

Post Exam

i supposed 2 be happy but i'm not. initially i decided 2 stay at pj 4 the whole week but when i think tat i had 2 share the same space with the ppl tat i dun like, i felt disgusting n uneasy. so u decided 2 stay at my bro's house even juz 4 3 days! at least i can hav my own time n space. i do not n nid 2 report everything tat i do n c all those faces. i hav my own space at ampang though i had nth 2 do here. lolz~ but when i imagine tat i nid 2 stay at tat place 4 the next year, i'm so frus! i duno whether i can get it thru o not o mayb i'll jump from the 16th floor 1 day. hu knows?

hmmm...the advice tat i giv it 2 myslef : dun think too much n juz c how it will go n how far will it go. everything has the +ve way. every incident has 2 sides, mayb when u use the other stands n thought 2 c tat incident, u'll inspired. Jiayou CYNTHIA! this is a self-challenge n self-tranning period. everything will be fine after 2 years! dun think too much n juz enjoy the upcoming HK trip! ^.^

張愛玲寫給女人的49句話

1.就算眼前的這個男人，千般好，萬般好，處處是優點，他不愛你，這個缺點，你永遠改變不了 。

2.分手時，不哭。當然，不是要你一點都不哭。當著面，別哭，背地裏，往死裏哭。

3.一個人最大的缺點，不是自私、野蠻、任性，而是偏執的愛著一個不愛自己的人 。
4.不管你的條件有多差，總會有個人在愛你。不管你的條件有多好，也總有個人不愛你 。

5.抓住男人的不二法門，應該就是，永遠不要讓他滿足。

6.打扮的再美，穿的再昂貴，那只是個幌子，用善良做的外衣才是真的美。
7.如果我們責怪愛情傷害了我們，那請問，開始的時候是不是你點頭答應愛情的來臨。
8.能開口說出的委屈，便不是委屈。能離開的人，便不算是愛人。
9.所有愛著的人，愛過的人，都做著同一件事，犯賤。
10.心裏能裝著一些時間帶不走的淡淡悲傷，也是一種幸福。
11.人永遠是寂寞而自我的生物。無論多麼真誠的說出自己的愛，也總會有無法被理解的心情。

12.不卑不亢，從容優雅，面對一切。
13.一個人，如果沒空，那是因為他不想有空；一個人，如果走不開，那是因為不想走開；一個人，對你藉口太多，那是因為不想在乎。

14.有的事情，沒法說明。你覺得值，就值，你覺得不值，別人說值，你也覺得不值。

15.要明白一個道理，男人可是輕易的喜歡一個人，但不會輕易的愛上一個人。

16.女人，戀愛的時候，就像，與世隔絕般。

17.在風平浪靜的日子裏，留點空間給自己，留點空間給對方，留點美好給距離 。

18.有的時候不要太計較，男人都有點粗枝大葉，忘了一件事，不代表他不愛你，別自己嚇自己。

19.女人，往往喜歡坦白心事，男人，則恰恰相反。

20.有時候，學會把失望當做一種收穫，因為有期望，才會有失望。

21.女人的心慈手軟，與男人的口是心非，成正比。

22.不要妄想試圖改變誰，因為誰也改變不了誰，只有，他願不願意為你改變。

23.張愛玲說過，時間，可以瞭解愛情，可以證明愛情，也可以推翻愛情。

24.自由可貴 ， 但是，每天數以萬計的人，在用自由換取愛情。

25.你可以虛榮，因為，那是女人的天性，但，不要讓自己變成為別人增加虛榮的工具。
26.不要說，這世上沒個好男人了，不要去記恨那個拋棄你的人，畢竟曾經愛過你、疼過你，寬容會讓你更美麗。
27.不要去好奇，不要去關心，他的現任女友長得如何？身材如何？你這樣只是自尋煩惱罷了。
28.說過的話一定要做到，哪怕是很愚蠢的，也總比言而無信的好。
29.不要在你哭泣的時候，說氣話，下決定，你會後悔的。
30.他說，我累了，讓我冷靜一段時間，好嗎？你就說好，因為，他是來通知你的，不是來取得你同意的。
31.你清純就罷，你假裝清純，比醜還難看，明白嗎？
32.不是所有的努力都會成功，但是，不努力，就一定不會成功。
33.女孩子要自愛，不管你遇到多大的打擊，不管你遇到的情況多麼悲涼，藉故墮落，也是墮落；
越是不愛自己，越是沒人愛你。
34.美貌、智慧、 金錢，很多事，都是天生註定的，別想用你那嫉妒心，改變什麼。
35.小心眼、嫉妒心、 仇恨、 報復，女人的伎倆不過如此，你要施展沒關係，關係的是你別被人發現。
36.放好心態，失去的東西，不要悲傷，你就當，他本身就不屬於你。
37.儘量做個優雅的女子，千萬別做作，因為，做作的女人，不僅女人討厭，男人更討厭。
38.獨立，永遠。不管，感情還是金錢。
39.嗯 ... 不要在哪幾個場合相信男人的話呢？床上、 他開心的時候、有求於你的時候、 犯錯的時候。
40.不要想盡辦法的向很多人炫耀，你有很多男朋友或者男性朋友。因為，別人不僅不會羡慕你，只會看輕你。
41.不要整天問，你愛我嗎？當你問的時候，他就不愛你了。
43.20歲以下，你相信偶像劇，那就算了。20歲以上，你還相信偶像劇，那就完了。
44.要知道，一個男人好與壞，不是看他花心還是專一，自古男人都花心，而是要看，有沒有控制力。
45.有沒有發現，往往刻骨銘心的愛戀。通常，沒有好結果。
46.煙、 酒，從古至今，被公認為兩大毒藥。而對，女人，愛情這一樣，足以致命。
47.勇敢的女人，永遠比懦弱的女人美麗。如果，你的愛人不愛你，我勸你還是勇敢點分離，好過，懦弱的糾纏。
48.善於妥協的女人，很寶貴。但是，只善於妥協的女人，很廉價。
49.不要做女強人，要做強女人。