最近的心情挺复杂的,想和别人说,可是找不到合适的人选；我想写出来, 却不知如何用文字表达. 写在部落格,就好像与全世界公布,只差还没登报纸. 我现在需要的,是一种吃了可以忘了烦恼与不开心的事的药.或者是吃了可以失忆的药.
我想我现阶段要学习的,除了是课业上的,也需要学习如何放下与宽恕. 这两样事情,凡人真的可以做到吗?因为我妈妈每次都告诉我: 如果凡人没有烦恼, 就不叫凡人了.这句话看似简单, 可是当中的道理也很难领悟.
我这个人向来都是相信自己,不相信神.我相信我之所以有今天的成就，都是我自己努力回来的。我不相信当我们碰上瓶颈，只要想神明祷告和祈福就能度过难关。其实，宗教对我来说是一种精神上的寄托。也许一项不相信神明的我，也该好好的与神明接触，感受一下这种奇妙的感觉。
我想学习放下和宽恕，行吗？
maybe try out what we learn in the counselling session. Perhaps u can write down the thing on papers or type it and print out...then burn it. hehehe...burn away all the unwanted thingy.
ReplyDeletelearning to forgive and let it go is very hard indeed, and it takes a lot of time. But I believe you can do it.
ReplyDeleteI actually consider myself as a free thinker, but tend to be buddhist lar...hahaha...coz I think every religion has it's nilai-nilai moral, and I have the same opinion like you. Praying alone cannot change anything, I myself still need to face it. Is not that when I pray my assignments will get A automatically. But sometime I do chant coz it brings peace to me, so that I can cool down and think. I said I tend to be Buddhist because I like Buddism's principle, Karma. What you did is what you get. You won't get anything if you never do anything. Buddha is not going to help you or pour money from the sky for you, and it teach me to be compassionate and lenience. I like it like that. ^v^Y
thanks june! mayb i hav 2 find a time 2 write those stuffs tat makes me unhappy n burn it!! after all, i think i'll be ok? perhaps? life is loong n tough. it needs courages n determination to go through those challenges n obstacles. life isnt easy. mayb i juz wanna emo for a while, be a different Cynthia tat usually will not appear in real life. haha! after 2 years at uni life, ijuz realized tat i dun hav a close n good fren. how sad n pity am i. is it my problem? mayb i hav 2 面壁思过.
ReplyDeleteI also have time when I'm very emo and I want to be alone oe anti social. I dunno what happen, just feel like very down and don't want to do anything. I'll listen to songs, watching videos or movie and cry. But I consider myself as lucky because when I'm emo, after I have a good night sleep I'll be ok, and usually something will happen and make me happy again...feels like magic...hahahaha!
ReplyDeleteI think not only you having the problem that when you really sit down and think, you do not have any friend that you can consider a very close and understand each other truely. I'm just like you. I have a lot of friends around me. We are very happy to be together but I dun't think they really understand me or know what i'm thinking or what my real personality is. Maybe is the way I think (my thinking is quite weird de...hahaha!)and maybe because of my attitude. I don't like people to know about my weaknessess because I think that's very dangerous as they might use that against you. I like people to think that I'm very capable in handling things and I'm tough. But anyway, i think this is very bad coz I feel that I'm kind of fake and pretending. I never let people know the true me. another thing is ppl really think i'm capable in doing everything and very suffer lor...hahaha! I also wish that guy will offer themself to take my luggage for me but I won't ask for it. Usually they will go and help girls that look kind of weak...I hope people will come and help me but I don't want to show the sign that i need help becoz I hate to be weak...and a lot more laa...hmm...maybe i'll write this in my blog later...hehehehe`